I have entered a new season of my life. Let me go back a few steps. I have spent the last several years helping lead a ministry that is for mother’s of preschoolers and younger. I built close friendships and a tight community. It was such a blessing to me to see how God worked in the lives of these mama’s who were just beginning their journey as wives and mother’s. I was blessed enough to share my heart with these ladies about marriage, motherhood, and how God can use them in small but signifigant ways in this busy season of their lives.
This past May, I graduated out of the group. I no longer had little ones so my time came to an end. I spent so much of my time dedicated to this group, so when I left, I felt an extra large void in my life. I kind of felt like two iron doors chained and locked closed behind me and I was left with an armful of memories and no clear direction to where I should go. Please note that these are still very dear welcoming friends, I just don’t belong there in the same way I did before. I was so focused on this ministry I was lost as to where to go next. So I wandered…….
I spent time in prayer but was in a period of waiting on the Lord to lead my path. The Lord chose not to answer right away. I think he was refining me by teaching me patience and trust in His will for me. It is hard to wait. I wanted to jump right in to something else because I had a hundred ideas of things I wanted to do but didn’t have peace about. In this time I had to neatly fold all my plans and lay them at the altar knowing that the will of God is so much greater than all the neat ideas I have swimming around in my head.
Several months ago God brought Titus 2: 3-5 to mind. I kept thinking I have many Godly older women mentors-maybe God wanted me to have more? I continued to pray about it and several weeks later while reading it for the hundreth time I finally got it! God was telling me that I am the older women being spoken about in the verses. Seriously? I was thinking, first, I have to leave a ministry I love and now God is telling me that I am old.
Reading this, I came to understand that the older women were teaching the younger women-I have daughters, I have a community of young wives and moters comming up right behind me. I have almost 18 years of being a mama under my belt along with countless other experiences. God has given me the gift of wisdom. Am as as wise as I will ever be? No, of course not, but enough to be an encouragement to other younger women. To walk beside them as they are journeying a path I already took.
God is taking my youngish self and gathering my experiences and strengths and channeling them into something just as wonderful but different-and I am starting to be OK with it, dare I say excited.
God, gave me this precious break to regroup and put my focus right back on Him. This has given me a more mature deeper relationship to the One who loves me most. I’m still not sure what exactly all that God has in store for me but I do know that I can wait and trust in His perfect timing (proverbs 3:5-6).
Are you in a season of transition? How is God working in your life during this time? I would love to know!
~Be Blessed and be a Blessing~
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